Anais Nin.

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful that the risk it took to blossom."  This is a quote by Anais Nin. This is my favorite quote by Anais Nin.  To me this quote means that if you shield yourself from everything around you and don't let anybody inside it is going to be way more painful then showing people who you really are.

I think that this quote describes me very well.  For a long time I was afraid to step out of my shell, be all I could be, and show people the real me.  Just like the quote says it feels like your in a tight bud.  For awhile it seemed safe and comforting like nothing could hurt me or harm me.  Opening up to anyone it just seemed to risky and to painful to show people who I really am and how I really feel.

But after awhile as living in fear continued, it kept me from where and who I want to be.  It became more and more uncomfortable until the pain of being closed up in this shell was way more painful then opening up to everyone.

oddly enough opening up to everyone ended up not being painful or scary at all.  I just thought that it would be but I was definitely wrong about that.  It just seemed scary to me because I was scared that people wouldn't accept me for who I am and would want me to change.  But I soon realized that people who want to change aren't your true friends.

So now I ask you what does this quote mean to you, and are you afraid to show your real self??

Until we meet again I will be in the middle of a Hale-Storm.

Shoes.

Soo I kind of have this addiction with shoes and it is getting beyond horrible!  Its getting to the point where shoes are taking over my room because there are to many of them and not enough space in my room.  Every time I go shopping I always get a pair of shoes and my parents just keep on buying then for me.

Well I have this shoe rack that holds about 15 shoes and that definitely doesn't cut it and I have a laundry basket that is overflowing with all of my flip flops.  Shoes are just laying all over my room, floor, closet, and some are even in my dresser because I have absolutely nowhere else to put them.

So I just counted all of my shoes and I have come up with a grand total of about 70ish pairs of shoes.  I have 10 pairs of athletic shoes,  6 pairs of slip ons,  3 pairs of dress up flat things,  3 pairs of high heels, 5 pairs of slippers that you where around the house, 2 pairs of boots, and 44 pairs of flip flops.

I keep wasting my own money and my parents money but mostly my parents money on shoes that I don't even need but yet have to have for some reason.  I don't even wear all of my shoes they just sit there waiting for me to wear them again someday but I probably never will.  I should probably get rid of some of them but when I try I'm always like well I can wear them with this shirt but lets get real I will never wear them.  I think I even have shoes that I have never even worn before that are still sitting in the box and that is just ridiculous.

A bunch of my friends always say to give them some of my shoes but I just can't they are like my children and have a piece in my heart because I just love them so so much.  So wish me some luck while I try to figure out which ones to get rid of! :(

Until we meet again I will be in the middle of a Hale-Storm.